And, so, the sage continues. It would be reasonable to suggest that the contents of these pages are the result of having spent most of my life denying and trying to control my emotions (‘as you do’). Finally, I have learned to give them priority and, for me, this means releasing negative emotions instead of holding onto them as was my custom previously and also feeling the love that is there deep in my heart which is a ‘flavour’ of my true self as a divine being. [See Appendix V: ‘Being in Service, Part 2’]. The Monstaville Memoirs, you could say, is also the product of not sharing with people enough or not having enough close people in my life to share with emotionally. I have tended to stick to the self-sufficiency dirt track whatever the weather. Sure, it gets quite muddy sometimes and, yes, waterlogged too in recent years, but, the truth is, we are never alone. We are, in fact, surrounded by beautiful beings of Light on the inner planes and we have forgotten that we exist there too. So this journey of life that I am on, and that you, the reader, are on too, is one of spiritual self-awakening (however much you might want to deny it or refuse to let go of social programming and linear thinking). This is just ‘my way.’ Personally, I learn better on my own and my depth and insight are derived from introverted reflection which is a precious gift in today’s externally-driven lifestyle. All that is about to change. Anyway, let’s just say that I learn more from my inner self than from other people.
“The next couple of years are going to be just the most interesting and the most full of growth, opportunities for people, dark night of the souls for many people and an opportunity not only to change the way we live but also…change our perspectives or how we want to live. And really think about what really is important…what’s important is who we are, where we’re going with ourselves.” – Alex Collier (Interview on ‘The Program,’ 9 April 2009).
According to Barbara Korte and Iris Barkhuysen, around June 2009, “a rupture occurred between the ‘drama-oriented' people and the ‘love-oriented' people. Neither are less evolved, just on different sides of the coin, creating a whole.” (‘Adjusting to Change,’ June 2010, www.diamondlightenergy.com). This has also been referred to as the Separation of Worlds and indicates that the forerunners of a new, multidimensional consciousness have broken off from the old world to help establish Earth’s new 144 Crystalline (Christ Consciousness) grid. This is a choice that more and more people are making as we start to lay the foundation for a Golden Age. With regard to drama, as more Light shines through and around us from the spiritual realms, the shadows we cast – our mental and emotional projections onto the canvas of life - appear darker. The question that we are being asked is, ‘Have you had enough or do you want some more?’ (to paraphrase Rick in The Young Ones). It is time to awaken from our slumber and end these nightmares that keep us separated from our true selves through low-density vibrations (negative energy and limited, finite consciousness).
“I’ve been laughing ever since I picked up your book. Some day I’m going to read it.” – Groucho Marx. 
And even in our sleep pain that cannot forget
Falls drop by drop upon the heart,
And in our own despite, against our will,
Comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of God."
- Aeschylus (The Oresteia).
Maturity comes with the falling leaves of autumn. Only then can we go forth and achieve a higher level of self-mastery. And we are Masters, all of us. Yes we are. Why else would we put ourselves through such trials, or bury ourselves in the dung heap of duality? Deep down, we are highly motivated spiritual beings dedicated to strengthening our roots, increasing our strength and wisdom, that we may ascend ever higher, that each branch may bear fruit, that we may realise our full potential as the co-creators we are. We are beautiful, powerful, radiant trees of Light whether we know it or not, whether we remember who we really are or not. No one is lost to themselves forever.
Keeping a journal is one thing. Turning it into books is quite another. And, it is this second, more conscious project which has enabled me to delve deeper, to teach myself, to focus and to fathom he meaning of my experiences.
The Monstaville Memoirs are more about psychological adjustment and options for coping with tormentors but also with suffering in general. The theme is essentially communication both with oneself and others on levels that are not customarily addressed (at least in the West). It is also about altering one’s attitude and opening up avenues of understanding which are often subtle and deep but can aid transformation in the long-term. If your orientation is not so physical, but more mental or emotional (or even spiritual) what options are available to you to increase your confidence and ability to cope with people who are bent on throwing their egos at you and overpowering you? What is an appropriate response to such pressure beyond the immediate, instinctive passive or aggressive reactions that are triggered by such behaviour? Some people do not aspire to rise above the animal level. I am sure there are many books that offer solutions for dealing with confrontational people directly. My martial arts instructor told me he has found that the best way to do that is to be cheerful but in a powerful way, to simply be confident and perhaps include a dose of humour, neither of which are easy things to do. It is important to communicate in a way that neither provokes nor reveals any fear or insecurity that can be targeted. It all depends, of course, on what kind of person one is dealing with as well as what one’s own capabilities are.
"The greatest fear in the world is of the opinions of others. And the moment you are unafraid of the crowd you are no longer a sheep, you become a lion. A great roar arises in your heart, the roar of freedom." - Osho.
I ought to mention that it is only as I finish writing up these entries in my journal some years later that I am beginning to take this advice seriously and regard universal love as a principle that warrants loyalty. This provides a relatively conclusive answer to my search for wisdom on this topic. I am finally realising that we can protect ourselves from harm through self-confidence with the help of conscious intent and the generation of positive thought and energy under threat. I have also found that what one may lack in terms of egocentric drive to conquer, rule, invade, compete, win or retaliate, one can and must make up for in internal power by focussing thought and energy. Love, on the level of true, eternal Being, is the ultimate power but it is also possible to use affirmations and to assert power through intention and honest, righteous identification with truth. Ah, yes, the rational trajectory of the humanist genre. There are, in fact, simple facts (and unimaginably complex ones) that exist on a deeper and therefore less tangible level (physically and intellectually at least) than material facts. The assumed protocols of Christian beliefs and the politically-correct victim mentality of our time, as well as libertarian and atheistic perspectives, are not under consideration in this book. Specifically, Monstaville is a spiritual quest for alternative solutions to age-old problems by thinking outside the box. People who are unable to stand up for themselves physically or lawfully need not feel totally powerless. We are not animals and neither do we need to be restricted to a purely human mentality! We need to start thinking as beings of cosmic consciousness because that is essentially what we are and we are here on Earth to realise and express the Divine Self, particularly now that the Golden Age is on the horizon. Time to shift gears!
- · Think back to a recent situation when you felt taken out of your sense of peace.
- · In your imagination, and giving yourself freedom to be creative, explore how you might create peace out of all that made up that situation.
- · Acknowledge your creativity and let go of the situation.