Monstaville Book II. Chapter 30

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Josie Geller (Drew Barrymore): “Let me tell you something...you will spend your lives trying to figure out how to put others down because it makes you feel more important. Why her?...Find out who you are - and try not to be afraid of it. Excuse me.”

(Never Been Kissed, directed by Raja Gosnell, 1999).

Through his self-disgust, Pigsy thinks I will judge and reject him even before I have. He believes it is in me and tried to bring it out so he can attack it, but the poison is the self-hatred inside himself. He assumes that I am weak and abusive like he is, even though I have not acted on it yet, so he feels justified in attacking me, to push, to bring it out and resolve the issue (that is, of his own inner tension). [Retrospective note: As I learned later, this was also a trigger that I had called to myself on some level in order to help release my own fears and blocked emotions from previous lifetimes].

That’s why he has never actually harmed me or started a fight by throwing the first punch. He wants me to react first so he can justify his violence. He believes there is aggression somewhere inside me and he finds it a threat. I’m sure he feels this way about most men but the ones who would soon kick his ass if he pushed their buttons he fears and therefore ‘respects.’ That is, he’s a bully and will only act on this instinct towards men he is confident of beating in a fight if it came to it. He is convinced that I want to attack him and if I do not I must be a baby because if there is any violence in me it should be unleashed...and then he can see that you are just like him and he will consequently feel satisfied. His fear of the unknown, that you are anything more special than he is, will subside.

He has his vices and couldn’t bear someone looking down on him. I think that, deep down, he respects me and that is why he cannot attack me. He wants to prove that I am just as fucked up as he is but if he succeeds in getting the reaction he is looking for then he will realise fully that I am just as savage and pathetic as he is. Then he will respect me as much as he respects himself, on every level. Perhaps he would just feel permanently justified in doing anything, taking his anger out on me verbally or physically without restraint. The fire does not blaze; the fight does not get off the ground.

[See Appendix VIII for some belated wisdom from Mother Mary in regard to understanding and helping people who seek to cause harm to others].

“If one throws salt at thee thou wilt receive no harm unless thou hast sore places.” - Latin Proverb.

“Most of your reactions are echoes from the past. You do not really live in the present.” - Gaelic Proverb.

Retrospective inserts.

“There are times in life when I really, really wish that people like The Equaliser, or the folks on Leverage existed in this world, and that they were on my side.  Or that I could conjure up Machiavelli, ply him with food and wine, and get some sound advice on how to deal with nasty people. Sometimes, I feel like I was raised amongst Hobbits in The Shire. I need a cunning mastermind to help me navigate some of the perils of society.” – Madam Chow (Madam Chow’s Kitchen, www.mzkitchen.com/?p=1015).

I have always thought that some people could sense unconsciously my own aggressive actions, or violence, in previous lifetimes. Yet, that person, or those people, is no longer who I am. Imagine a great warrior like Musashi, Japan’s most famous Samurai warrior, who is aggressive as a youngster and wins every fight throughout his life, like it’s just too easy for him. Yet, as he grows older he grows more relaxed and contemplative, takes up painting and appreciates peace. Musashi, although he is also one of Japan’s most famous painters, remained enthusiastic about the art of war right to the end, as far as I know. Imagine a warrior, however, who becomes a wise and gentle elder in his later years and is challenged by a wild young warrior trying to prove something, hungry for power and disdainful towards tradition and the respect and self-control that it confers for the good of the community. The elder no longer operates on the same fiery, savage level. His life may be in danger without protection from the social order which recognises his status and authority; or he may employ wisdom and strategy to defend himself. He is not interested in ‘winning’ or killing his challenger. He only wishes to diffuse the problem. First, he may try reasoning with his younger brother and, last, he may kill his opponent if absolutely necessary for his own survival and the preservation of those around him and their way of life.

The selfish, hot-blooded rebel is so sure of himself without having the perspective that results from learning and experience. He may even have made a deal with the enemy with the aim of usurping the seat of power (replacing accomplished individuality with the lower animal self). Hopefully, he will learn a valuable lesson from his mistake while the elder may have grown likewise through the test of his wisdom and strength. One is charging up the hill, fuelled and encouraged by his natural energy and vigour which also generate pride. The other is strolling meditatively down the other side, observing the beauty and pondering the meaning all around him as well as assessing his feelings and delighting in this newfound source of self-awareness, this inner world that he often failed to notice in his active past. They happen to meet. Either the thug mows his spectre down in the form of the old man or the latter sees his protagonist coming and moves silently to one side ready to stand his ground and deal with the challenge, not with a sharp sword, but with gentle consciousness.

“What other people think of you is none of your business.” – Unknown.

I am Me, I am Free by David Icke (Bridge of Love Publications, Cambridge, U.K., 1996).

p.89. I thought I was just unlucky. I wasn’t. I was creating it by attracting to me what I feared. We need to do this to overcome our fears, otherwise our potential is severely limited and, in the area related to the fear, our evolution comes to a halt. I remember, too, that when I began to love and respect myself for what I am, I began to attract around me more and more people who love and respect me for what I am and not for what they would like me to be. You don’t like your friends? Change yourself and your friends will either change in their attitude towards you or they will move out of your life and others will emerge to reflect your new sense of you. Everything that happens in your life you are creating...The subconscious considers the book [speaking of the way we are magnetised to certain books] helpful to the reawakening of its conscious level and so it drops the hint in a physical way. Whatever we need, we draw to us.

p.126-127. The same applies when people attack us or hurl abuse at us. We can take on their problem or leave them to deal with it. If they have a problem with us, that’s exactly the situation. They have a problem. It only becomes our problem if we choose to get hooked in and be offended by what they say or do. When we react negatively to someone who offends or hurts us, we are making a two-way magnetic connection with them. We become hooked into their vibe. Their problem is now ours. We are playing on their negative playing field, on their terms, and by their rules. When we choose not to be offended or hurt, there is no magnetic connection and so we don’t take on another’s problem or create a problem that isn’t really there.

p.151-152. Go to the focus of your bitterness, look him, her, them, in the eye and say how much you love them and you want the conflict to subside. How they wish to react to that offer is up to them, but you have ended the conflict because conflict cannot exist without two sides full of bitterness for each other. If you no longer project bitterness the conflict must end because love and bitterness are never in conflict. They cannot be because love is without judgement, bitterness, guilt or resentment - the very fires that make conflict possible.

“If we could assure you of anything, it would be that you are well looked after, and well cared for in many dimensions and that everything you are experiencing is in divine and perfect order. Chaos is merely a reflection of reorder, and reorder is the order of the day! All of life on this planet at this time are undergoing an arduous restructuring process...from the very cells that make up your human biology to the governing systems of every nation. This includes those who join you in the conscious brigade and those who do not...Hold steadfast to your inner knowing that all strife will soon dissipate under the magnificent light of new creation. The world around you will continue to crumble in many divine ways but you, benevolent ones, will remain securely fastened to the foundation of new earth should you choose to see life through the eyes of divinity. Be at peace knowing that you are fully protected and supported through this and every change. All that is love is of divine order and all that is in divine order would be impossible to destroy. Eventually, all arrive at truth. All this you already deeply know. We are the Sirian High Council applauding your endurance in the face of adversity and already celebrating your success. Stay centred in your knowing despite all external appearances. In the blink of an eye, a new day dawns!”- The Sirian High Council (channelled through Lauren C. Gorgo, ‘The Merging of Soul Partnerships,’ 12 May 2009, www.thinkwithyourheart.net).

The Gabriel Messages Card #9: ’Trust in the Divine Plan, bless it and bless the Divine Order inherent in every person and every situation.’

Dear One,

When you trust in the Divine Plan you are moving into the universal flow of good. You are acknowledging that there is an underlying energy within all things.  This is the energy of God, and it is part of the Divine Plan for all beings to live in harmony, love and abundance.  You can trust this.

When you bless the Divine Order inherent in every person and every situation, it increases the spiritual energy flowing through whatever you are focused upon. Blessing brings more love to the person or situation, which brings an immediate improvement.

Practice:

Divine Order exists as the underlying truth within all beings and all situations. It is a powerful affirmation for life and can be used as a mantra to remind you of the greater truth within all circumstances. This means repeating the words ‘divine order’ to settle your mind, and to bring you peace. When you don’t know what to do, claim ‘divine order’ and your mind will align with this powerful reality. Divine Order is being in perfect alignment with God on every level of your being. Remembering Divine Order, and proclaiming it, assists the energy around you to fall into perfect alignment.

These very simple steps of trusting, blessing and remembering can bring you peace of mind in upsetting situations. The more often you remember, the stronger you become. Your inner sense of peace will become unshakable because you have aligned yourself with the ultimate truth at all times. Remember your message from the Angels today.

“Trust in the Divine Plan, bless it and bless the Divine Order inherent in every person and every situation.’”

- Shanta Gabriel (‘Trust in the Divine Plan - Guidance About Haiti,’ 17 January 2010, www.thegabrielmessages.com).

“Those who hurt others will also hurt themselves.” - Natsuki Takaya.

“You're right of course, I have learned that reaction just keeps us stuck in a limited ego identity like animals whereas our true being is light and love and dwells within and beyond the heart and that is the path to inner happiness whereas reaction pulls us out into the outer world which is a holographic illusion and keeps us stuck in the Matrix as-it-were. And I guess maybe I have had enough suffering and want out if I can accomplish such a feat. Worth a try anyway! Haha. Of course I have been fortunate enough to have had some encouragement from spiritual sources beyond this plane of consciousness we call the world. If that makes sense! But then I'm older and one has to grow wiser sooner or later (although many don't!).” – Antraeus de Herschia (from a message to a friend, 15 September 2013).

“Learn what is to be taken seriously and laugh at the rest.” - Goethe in Steppenwolf by Hermann Hesse (1927).